It has been awhile since I wrote on here. I guess I am going to get out how I feel…
My dog Zeus got shot on October 16 , 2010! He was only 1 year and 4 months. My mom came home from the store, and he just went crazy and attacked her. She dragged him outside, so people could see what he is doing. They had to shoot him because he would not leave my moms side. I understand why he had to be shot, but I wish he never had done this to my mom. My mom almost died, and I would of lost it. The doctor said she is lucky to be alive, that if she didnt have fat arms she would be dead. That had me have a wake up call. I started to realize what is important in life, and to work on problems I am having. I am so thankful my mom is still alive. We found out the reason why he attacked was because he was mentally retarted =[ He just could not take whatever was going on in his head..
I miss Zeus very much. He was my child. I have no kids, and he was one of my kids. I did everythign with him. He was always by me. If I were to be up, and everyone else is sleeping he would stay up with me. It is hard at times, and I start to really miss him. He was a great dog, and I will remember him that way. He was sucha big baby. He loved all of us very much. I will always love him, and he will always be my baby! RIP ZEUSY!
Besides that not much as been going on. Stephanie Bundy and I are not friends. That is a good thing though becasue I was getting sick of how fake she was. She would talk so much shit about people, but then confronted she would say she didnt say it. I mean come on I know you did. She made me out to be the lyer, and made up lies, so that people would get on her side. Well one person is seeing how she is, and beilives me. That is the person she tried to get againts me. My feeling is if you talk shit about someone, and then are confronted by it, then tell the damn truth. People get more mad when you lie!! I have so much stress gone now that her and I are not friends =]
I have realized a lot. I know now who to trust, and who not to trust. I may not have many friends, but that is okay that way. I don’t have a lot of drama, and whoever is still there I have fun with. Stephanie Smith is my best friend, and she has been for awhile. She is the one person that did not leave my side. Kyle, has always been there for almost 2 years. I love him so much. I am glad we are still together! My mom, dad, and brother also been there FOREVER! I dont know what I would do without them. I say fuck the haters =]
Kyle and I are doing great! Our 1 year and 7 moths is today! I am so glad I met him. He makes me so happy. Of course we have our fights, but all couples do. He completes me =] He is there no matter what. He has seen me hit rock bottom, and he still has not left my side. He is there in every way for me. I am so glad we got together. I can see myself marrying him one day. He says he will never get married, but I know he will =] He said he will never live with a girl, never get a girl a ring, BUT he has done all that with me =] I am the happiest I have ever been. Yeah we both put each other through a lot of bullshit, but we worked past that. I trust him 100% I know when he says hes going somewhere he goes there, and does not sneak around my back and do something stupid. He is the FIRST boyfriend i have been with that has not cheated on me. I know that sounds stupid, but it is the truth. I am glad he has not cheated on me because it would make me not trust him for awhile. It would be in the back of my head all the time if he would do it again, but I am glad he did not cheat =] We are perfect for each other. People have said their nasty shit to us, but fuck them. We are going to be together no matter what! I love you Kyle always&forever!
My family and I have gotten a lot closer. I am not being as bitchy as I use to be, but of course I have my days. Ever since my moms attack that helped me open up my eyes. I almost lost my mom, and I don’t need to fight with her, I need to get closer to her. We have always been close, but I was sucha bitch to her. Now we get along great. Barley get into fights. I love my family very much. I only have my mom, dad, and brother for family. My grandparents died when I was 10, and my other grandparents don’t give a fuck about me. I don’t have any aunt and uncles. My aunt and uncles on my mom’s side are mean to her, so they can fuck off. I do talk to my dads brother once in awhile. My dads other brother passed away, so I have no aunts and uncles. It sucks sometimes becasue people talk about how they are going to so many realtives house, and I go nowhere. Oh wel though at least I still have my mom, dad, and brother. I love them all so much, and they mean everythign to me. I would do ANYTHING for them! Noone comes before any of them =]
School is going good. Fall term is almost done. I am pretty sure I am going to get on the deans list =] I have been doing really good in all my classes. I am on some new meds for my bypolor. THey are working really good. I dont get depressed as much. Its funny though becasue everytime I fight with someone they say “Your Crazy did you take your meds today?” And I laugh everytime they say that. I know I have a mental problem, and I came to reality with that. Noone is going to hurt me for saying that bullshit because I have an exuese to be crazy, and people who say that stupid shit to me don’t have no exuse =] I am starting to realize my true friends, and everyone else can fuck off. I have a lot of people who hate me, but they can talk shit all they want. I know that I am on their minds when they talk shit, and they have a pathtic life!